current music: RAPPER'S DELIGHT!! :D (Classics!)

nakaka-tanga talaga. kanina, nag-aksaya ako ng pera. Bumili ako ng ewan promo game/toy/ewan ng Sonic sa McDo (dahil last day na raw ng promo nila). Fine fine. I realize I can pass that thing on to my baby cousins when I see them on Monday. Pero ewan. Sixty pesos din yun.

Then there was the long walk home. Seriously, my feet are so tired. Hehe. At least nakabili ako ng Gatorade (And it Works! :D), so may energy ako! ;p Sayang lang pera, though. :p

Tapos, bumili naman ako ng expansion pack ng Rise of Nations. 100 Pesos naman. Mhen! Isang org din yun!

Which isn't so bad, in retrospect. That means I now will have to SERIOUSLY decide which orgs I shall take part in.

Now, I'm a Heightser no sweat. Siya na ata ang pinakamalapit sa isang home org ngayon. Thing now, is whether I'll re-app for AMS, Kaingin and LFC. Then, I'm being *heavily* recruited by the people from Strains and TheGuidon.

This is where things get hairy. All that's certain is I'm not going back to LFC. Ito'y dahil wala naman akong ginawa dun! And besides, I can't do *Hard Core* filmmaking work. I therefore see no further use of myself in the org. So sorry Cerz, I'm not going back. :(

For AMS, the only thing that's keeping me loyal are: 1.) a promise I made to Mela to support her in AMS and 2.) chilling with people I know there. Thing is, I don't feel the pressure to join the org over again to be inactive and just lounge at the room. Ang tanga naman nun. Sayang sa pera. As for promise ko kay Mela.... well... I think I can still keep it in spite of me quitting. Ewan. I've yet to talk to her. Basta predominant mood ko, ayoko na.

Kaingin? Well, that's a trick question. Remember that ad I love by Adidas? Well, here's the whole thing, just in case:


Impossible is a just big word thrown aroud by small men,
who find it easier to live in a world they've been given
than explore the power they have to chage it.

Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion.
Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare.
Impossible is potential.
Impossible is temporary.

Impossible is Nothing.

Ayan. Either way, being in Kaingin is sort of my way (apart from Days) to "explore my change-the-world power". I love the kids, and I like the people (most of the time). I just don't like the mood around the org when I'm there. Ewan. Last year, people were suddenly so uptight and so closed when I was around. Yung tipong galit sa akin. Ewan. Pakshet na lang yan. Alam ko may galit talaga sa akin. I've already apolgized, but all this time, ayaw pa nya akong patawarin.

Tangina. Bahala siya. Pasalamat siya di pa ako nagsasalita. Baka naman may masaktan diyan.

But I don't wanna quit the org just because of that. I don't wanna stop doing work I love because of such a (to me) petty difference. Ewan. I do know is that the work I do in LnK is somehow, my way of doing the work I love. Therefore, I don't need Kaingin. Does Kaingin need me? Maybe. Thing is, I forsee this summer to be very, very busy, and LnK may not be an option anymore. So we'll see na lang.

I've wanted to join Guidon, mainly because I think it's good for my career. I'd like to join Strains because I think I'd like the people there (and I really think I will! ü).

I don't know; priority ko ang Heights saka A-Days saka acads (and hopefully, LnK for one more summer). Pucha, I gave up being a TnT for A-Days! I gave up Ronnie's job offer because I knew di kaya yan ng academics ko! Haay. Oh well. That was painful, but necessary.

So we'll see. Adventure na 'to.